|INTERPLANETARY INTERRACIAL GLOBAL M.A.O.R.I. UNION|
|Imagine a butterfly, that is so happy to be free from the cocoon, that it literally dances on air. No doubt this is how my daughters will feel when they gets home.|
I refer to mine and my daughters ailments as Butterfly Love, because our symptoms are very similar in nature to the butterfly. This is our main mode of existence which manifests when there is no apparent harm or danger. The only other mode for people like us is survival mode - and that all depends on the variables such as length and depth of sleep, dream state, degree of happiness, level of fear, worry and panic, but above all - the stress factors!!! (etc).
Ya know..., I know a lady who has gone onto the sickness benefit because she apparently suffers from working around the perfumes that other people wear. My point being, she has an invisible ailment acknowledged (and yes, I think hers are questionable), yet with reall ailments like memory loss, anxiety, chronic separation anxiety and panic attack..., apparently, mine and my daughters are B***S*** according to Child Youth and Family, which I think is an attitude reflective of the loopholes in medical consultation where 'only hard evidence' is validated, resulting in children like my daughter, whom I have diagnosed after much research, as suffering from (Often Stress Reactive) Developmental Dispraxia - in the absence of a confirmed diagnosis. This has now been forced out of her by Child Youth and Famiy - apparently. Yes, quite frankly, many of my children have had to battle their own ailments on top of battling most evil and dangerous pedophiles and child torturers.
Our Invisible Ailments are as follows:
1. Short and Long Term memory losses. We are prone to short and longer-term memory losses when dealing with stress, feeling intimidated, and feeling fear, loss and or anxiety/panic attack. The greater the degree of emotion, the longer the term of memory loss. Often, just waking up in the morning is like waking up with few memories from the day before - a bit like that 50 first dates movie, and only the stronger more deeply embedded memories are accessible. It's actually quite annoying, because when my father died, I suffered amnesia (longer term memory loss) due to trauma, and suffered RMR - Repressed Memory Recall at age 35, when I finally recalled my memories of my father, and how his death happened etc.
2. We are easily intimidated but not deterred. We get hurt quite easily due to our very sensitive natures that also enable us to derive huge and immense enjoyment out of the simple pleasures in life such as picnics, walking (a favourite activity), eating, etc. This is in actual fact a very note worthy ailment, as a bad experience, can often put us off a certain course of action for good. Like the guy I met who got beaten at school by his teacher, and he never enjoyed learning after that. He gave me his address for future visits.
3. Temporary Confusion. We are prone to cloudy moments of confusion and what I have reffered to as scrambled thoughts, but this is only temporary..., and usually when feeling intimidated - a fact which I firmly associate with memory loss and matakite - our spiritual ability to connect with our past, present and future memories.
4. We are prone to accident in both Butterfly Mode and survival mode, not because we are naieve, but because we tend to focus on our thoughts, rather than what the world is screaming at us - cars, trucks, people, ,media battle for attention. Again, matakite factors into this equation.
5.We are prone to fear, anxiety, and panic attack given our sensitive natures that can easily be intimidated in butterfly mode. But when survival mode takes us past our limits, we can stop registering pain. This fact presented it'self after my daughter was taken. She would be presented to me with scratches, bruises etc, yet couldn't tell me how they happened, and couldn't even remember them even happening at all. And they were pretty bad injuries. Through this experience of being ripped apart from each other..., I have discovered a new ability to go from Butterfly Love mode to survival mode in a mere second. My daughter however, she is in survival mode full-time until she comes back home to me. But try to be happy when you can Charlize. Fuck I hate what is happening to you. That is why I fully intend on sorting every single problem - as is my moral obligation as your loving and devoted parent. And bringing these people to justice forms a big part of it.
More to come soon.